There might be a more appropriate category for this, but will post here for now as the questions have to do with insight gained from seeing that the limits of the senses are the limits of what is experienced as the world.
I have meditated for years and enter 2nd Jhana now every time I meditate, less frequently 3rd, with no real facility with 4th as of yet.
A few months ago I began investigating 'non-dual' teachings for the first time, and found them opening me up to new ways of seeing that I had not before considered. The most significant perhaps being that this body is not a separate self, or that 'the world' does not exist independently of the experience of it.
Through this insight I have begun to investigate the fabricated nature of self, and related issues of guilt and conscience.
While the world may in fact exist, or run independent of being here, that is also just a thought in the field of experience, and can therefore only form part of a belief system, which has been seen to be delusional, a fantasy, as it only has bearing on the actuality of my immediate experience as delusion. In other words, it is what it is, but it goes beyond the limits of what can be known as fact.
This seems significant, and would seem to be an issue of right view, is there a way to take this further, or does it not really matter or make any significant difference?
I discovered that when I put my attention on a sense field, usually vision as that seems the easiest to see 'this', with a subtle shift of attention, I see that there is nothing outside of my field of vision, and that everything
in my field of vision in this moment is 'what' I am (if that is anything at all).
Sabba Sutta: The All
"Monks, I will teach you the All. Listen & pay close attention. I will speak."
"As you say, lord," the monks responded.
The Blessed One said, "What is the All? Simply the eye & forms, ear & sounds, nose & aromas, tongue & flavors, body & tactile sensations, intellect & ideas. This, monks, is called the All. Anyone who would say, 'Repudiating this All, I will describe another,' if questioned on what exactly might be the grounds for his statement, would be unable to explain, and furthermore, would be put to grief. Why? Because it lies beyond range."
The sense of an 'I' sees this most clearly when in 3rd Jhana. Previously 'I' would have said that there was a heightened awareness, clarity,
of the world, which this body is 'in', and which operates independently of its being in it. But with this shift of awareness, the 'I' sees that it is in fact one and the same as the objects in the field of vision, and that there is no separation between vision and the objects appearing in it. In other words, awareness and the limits of my sense fields (which is perception?) feel like a single connected piece, with no distinction between inner and outer. This becomes further puzzling when noticing that the body is here too 'in' the field of vision.
There is sometimes a delirious effect when reflecting on 'why' all this is happening, why is it happening rather than not happening? Why is this appearing rather than not appearing? Could it not not appear?
Just yesterday on the way to work, something 'dropped away', a sense of identity, and there was a feeling of emptiness, clarity, calm, the body aligned itself, the breathing became easy and transparent. It felt like 3rd Jhana, but what fell away, did so in an instant, and there was a sense of feeling completely present. It was the first time this had happened like this. It was different than when 3rd Jhana arises from meditation, or spontaneously, it just happened, in an instant, unexpectedly.
Later, when walking home, there was a subtle effort to maintain a sense of bearings, of where 'I' was, attention would shift from where 'I' was going, to the texture of the experience of where 'I' was. Subtle, but interesting.
These phenomena are only just beginning to be seen and so haven't been explored with any depth. There is awarness that non-dual practices, dzogchen, advaita vedanta, mahamudra, deal with these issues, but I have as yet not read the literature associated with these experiences this body is having, and wonder if you might be able to shed some light on this here.
William