I am not sure if my experience is the same as you described, but when I began meditating in 1-2 hour sessions every day is when I started having powerful kundalini rushes up my spine, which then culminated in an explosive white light experience, which annihilated my identity. In my experience these ecstasies happen randomly, so one just has to show up regularly for them to occur. It is called the opening of the crown chara in Hinduism.
Yes, this is a really good description of what happened. Also, it was as if I lost sense of my body too. It became really, really soft. Does this opening mean anything in particular?
Although I have never recorded it on this forum, you are describing the third or fourth really amazing experience I had some years ago when I was still without guidance. It is close to my heart, and so it has become poetry or imagery to inspire others. The gist is it felt like I could "scoop" heaps of ecstasy from that pool in the head. And I did. Until finally things changed dramatically, and it felt as though a door swung open and I was urgently embraced in loving-kindness which brought kundalini blasts and tears to my eyes and unburdened me of much inner baggage.
It was the first time as an adult I can recall feeling really, truly, loved completely. For me, that sealed it; I was committed for life. In recollection, it appears to be the reconnection of communication between the conscience, intellect, and consciousness. But that is a bit technical and likely not entirely accurate.
Please, keep the posts coming. If your archetype is as mine--which it seems--then you have a keen affinity for sharing your experiences and inspiring others.
