I have recently become more consciously aware of a hurdle I seem to be facing in meditation.
The phenomenon is distinguishing between feelings that are "jhanic" vs. ordinary pleasant feelings in the body.
Let me begin by describing feelings that are ordinary: the feeling of shivering can be pleasant, the stretching of the limbs, or feeling of the skin on the outside of the body can be mildly pleasant. All of these pleasant feelings often follow a craving and can be self generated. We can make ourselves shiver and experience that pleasantness afterwards for example.
During meditation I was clinging to subtle feelings of pleasure in the body that are related to the feelings that occur normally. The reason I say "related" is because they weren't directly the result of sense contact. For example, the feeling of being "spaced out" is for the mast part a sensation that occurs in the head. The feeling of mild laziness in the limbs, or of the heartbeat throughout the body is an ordinary sensation.
I was attaching myself to feelings like this, and as a result they got a little strange. I would be distracted by the pounding of the heartbeat in my head during the day - and of a series of muscle relaxation/tensions that would occur afterward. Or a slight feeling behind the eyes of being "spaced out" was distracting me.
The reason I was attaching to them is because they can be pleasant. However they don't seem like anything worth searching for because a) They were never that pleasant b) They were distracting and irritating at times and c) They were for the most part my body giving into a craving that it can feed - in the same way that the desire to shiver is a craving that the body can feed itself (even if it is not cold).
It is understandable that the Buddhist, who has read the suttas, would like to understand precisely what the suttas describe, so that one can understand whether one is having a successful meditation or not. And, when we discuss the suttas with Buddhist priests they often have a fairly fantastic interpretation of the suttas, we tend to acquire fantastic expectations to the 8 stages of religious (samadhi) as they are described to us in Buddhism.
My argument is the 8 stages of religious (samadhi) are shades of gray from the mundane to that fantastic. So, the first jhana need not be fantastic, and is most probably quite mundane. After all, the second jhana is the stilling of the mind, yet most people who report stilling the mind in meditation rarely report fantastic phenomena.
So, I believe what is behind the piti and sukha terms that are used in the suttas as part of the description of the 1st jhana, is simply learning to value the small pleasures we gain in the practice of meditation. The reason why we need to value the small pleasures we gain in the practice of meditation is we need to learn to meditate every day, and for long periods of time, if we are going to negotiate all 8 stages of religious (samadhi).
And, when one learns to value those small pleasures we gain in the practice of meditation, then one is encouraged to practice meditation every day. And, when we practice meditation every day for more than just 20 minutes, then we learn to relax in meditation, we then savor those small pleasures we gain in the practice of meditation, and we look forward to those small pleasures, and slowly the pursuit of the many distractions in life become not so attractive, or at least we might say to our self, "Well, let me meditate first."
When I went to meditate I was able to set aside distractions of daily life easily, but these feelings were distracting me from the breath. Occasionally I would "give in" to them because they could be pleasant - and jhana was supposed to be "suffusing the body with bliss," right?
One of the many things we must do, if we are going to be successful in deep meditation, is to analyze why others do not succeed in meditation practice where we would like to succeed. I think one of the many mistakes people make in the contemplative life is they become obsessed with the meditation object, so that when the subtle pleasant feelings of the 8 stages of religious (samadhi) first begin to arise, we tend to push them away, because we want to attend to our meditation object. However, since the second jhana is free of vitaka and viccara, then it must also be free of the meditation object, so the person who is not successful in arriving at the second jhana is the person who has become obsessed with his/her meditation object, and never lets it go.
But I decided that they weren't leading anywhere, and that they were actually a result of craving sensations and feelings. So I was able to find this craving in my body that was causing me to try and strangely feed them and I decided I wouldn't let this craving happen.
Here, Soren, you might just be obsessing over what is craving, verse what is craving. Obsessing is one of those things we have to let go of as well. So, just let go, relax and allow the meditation experience do whatever it is going to do, while you meditate, which has to include relaxing deeply, if one is going to be successful with the practice of meditation.
After a few days of not acquiescing I was able to stay with the breath much more easily. But then a rerun of the problem happened!
My body starts to get a subtle feeling of vibration that feels mildly pleasant.
That subtle feeling of vibration might just be a charism (jhana-nimitta), which one would want to pay attention to. But, then, maybe not.
When I ignore it and stay with the breath the pleasure increases some. The vibration in my body remains however. I have noticed that my body is able to crave this pleasantness, and so given the above story the conclusion would be to destroy the craving and the perception.
So, here you might be confused as to what craving is. Craving is obsessing over something, which is normally related to one of the 10 hindrances. So, maybe you can use the hindrances as a way to determine if you are craving something, verses a natural response to the pleasure of bliss (piti).
The Five Hindrances (nivarana) to Enlightenment 1) Sensual desire (kamacchandra) 2) Ill-will or aversion (vyapada) 3) Restlessness, remorse, anxiety (uddhacca-kukkucca) 4) Sloth and Unconsciousness (thina-middha) 5) Skeptical Doubt (vicikiccha)
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10 Fetters (samyojana) tying beings to the wheel of existence: 5 Lower Fetters (orambhagiya-samyojana) 1 Narcissism, provincialism, clan identification sakkaya-ditthi 2 Skepticism & doubt vicikiccha 3 Clinging to rules, rights and rituals silabbata-paramasa; s. upadana 4 erotic craving kama-raga 5 Ill-will or aversion vyapada
5 Higher Fetters (uddhambhagiya-samyojana) 1 Craving for material existence or Lust for form rupa-raga 2 Craving for immaterial or formless existence arupa-raga 3 Conceit mana 4 Restlessness uddhacca 5 Ignorance avija
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But when I ignore the pleasure in my body and stay with the breath it seems to grow and a few times I have felt the onset of emotional joy - but it hasn't lasted and I am not sure if it was authentic.
It seems similar in nature to the other feelings - however now it is more of an all body awareness and it could match the description of the first jhana: "permeating the body with bliss."
So I am very uncertain as to what type of feelings I should cultivate. On one hand these feelings seem to contradict:
"“So too, monks, here some wise, competent, skillful monk dwells contemplating the physical body, ardent, clearly comprehending, mindful, having removed covetousness and displeasure in regard to the world.
Because I have noticed that my body can crave them which would mean I was suspect to covetousness. But on the other hand:
"While he dwells contemplating phenomena, his (her) mind becomes absorbed (jhana), his (her) corruptions (nivarana) are abandoned he (she) picks up the sign (nimitta)” of absorption (jhana)."
"One should know how to define pleasure, and knowing that, one should persue pleasure within oneself."
I really don't know how to define pleasure within myself right now! "Picking up the sign" seems to imply noticing a sensation in the body that will lead to jhana - but the sensations I am noticing in my body right now are craving-oriented.
Should I just ignore bodily phenomenon and stick with the breath until I notice something really strong? Or should I follow these bodily feelings of mine - which are similar to a type of relief found in breathing?
Can one please give an articulate description of the first jhana? I am aware that the distinguishment to be made for ordinary sensations vs. jhana is that the jhana has charisms, but I have also seen it written that the charisms typically begin to manifest in the third jhana.
I think at first it is best just to learn to relax deeply when one meditates, and to value the good things one gets out of meditation, and to work on stilling the mind.