Jhanon's Blog

[Jhanon]

I appreciate lending an eye for us into your daily world, Jhananda. Thank you.

Yes, I have determined that some kind of great progress has been made--as it almos unknowingly followed with the complete cessation of all medications. As a result, as they faded out of my system, I was left with an increase level of charismatic activity.

But the sound is so loud sometimes. Does it get to te point I humbling in ordinary daily life absorption?

[Jhanananda]

Yes, when we drop the drugs we find access to the charisms much easier.  If you have inflammation, then try anthocyanins, which are available in cherries, peaches, apricots, concord grapes, purple corn and black rice, and black soy beans.

Yes, in my experience the charismatic sound can become defining.

[Jhanon]

Yes, when we drop the drugs we find access to the charisms much easier.  If you have inflammation, then try anthocyanins, which are available in cherries, peaches, apricots, concord grapes, purple corn and black rice, and black soy beans.

Yes, in my experience the charismatic sound can become defining.

1) I followed your anthocyanin thread. I've been eating almost primarily fruit, like black berries, raspberries, granny smith apples, peaches, and white grapes. This is because my body can no longer tolerate anything else. The inflammation is from sitting on the floor for the last three months, with the typical indications of western posture from the past, compounded by a hyper-sensitivity to the issues the medications used to "treat."

2) I am happy to "hear" this. LOL. I'm sorry--I mean that it is good, because last night I had only two choices. Anxiety or Absorption. I appreciate it when I am forced within my own being (not through others) to meditate and remain absorbed daily.

[Jhanon]

All my life I have felt the presence of other beings when I go "to the bathroom". Look, lol, that's just the truth. It was so bad, that when I was younger, I would avoid going--for extended periods of time. And, I mean, this was all the way up until I was 10 and 11. It caused some serious problems. I always felt other beings watching me. I would get blasts down my spine the whole time. I still do.

When I was younger, I was a "funny man." I was the comedic relief. Around 13 that started to go away, and was replaced by a terrible person.

Then about 2 weeks ago, this humor began to come back. Even when I'm alone. I feel as if I am some comedy for other beings. Almost like "stick humor"(?), but for higher level beings who found it humorous what I have to go through down here.

Most of my other humor occurs during real-time discussion with others who are coming into mystic-ship(?) In other words; people who might find the same things funny that I do. And, my sense of humor mostly revolves around how insane humanity is.

[Jhanon]

How religion ever formed is beyond me. When one can study every single major spiritual writing that has lasted at least 500 years, and find they are saying the same thing. Remove desire/attachement/clinging and the soul is empty for the fullness of God to enter it. More vivid than a strobe light in your face in a dark room, one directly experiences the profound Truth, Way, Dhamma, God, etc. Perhaps religion formed of desire/attachment/clinging, no? Such a wicked irony.

The Discourses of the Buddha
St. John of the Cross
St. Teresa of Avila
Jesus and his Disciples
The Bhagavad Gita
Yoga
Tao Te Ching
On and on...

[Jhanon]

Some fundamentalist Christian Missionaries just came by, although they didn't see or notice me. I don't know why, but I found the situation amusing. Here I am, working in the shadows--and they walk door-to-door without even feeling my presence. How ironic.

[Jhanon]

Thank you, Alexander. I've found St. John of the Cross to be full of useful writing, especially for the penultimate and final attainments.

"For, as we shall afterwards say, a single unruly desire, although there be in it no matter of mortal sin, suffices to bring a soul into such bondage, foulness and vileness that it can in no wise come to accord with God in union until the desire be purified."

In other words it appears he is saying "Even one "innocent" desire will prevent full Enlightenment. One with even one desire is not fully enlightened. And perhaps he even means "craving=no kundalini ecstasy"

[Jhanon]

Before falling asleep, I had visuals of silhouettes coming from the left side which would come right up to my face to "sniff" me. I didn't get a warm fuzzy feeling from these, and after the fourth one, I began to direct my awareness toward angels/devas, which is maybe only the second time I've done such a thing. I asked for the help of an old friend who has transitioned onto the Pure or Heavenly Abodes. Nonetheless, I continued to absorb into jhana/samadhi sleep. What follows:

Lessons/teaching in sleep? Ghosts? Kundalini that wakes one from sleep? 3+ hours into sleep, I woke up to kundalini that frightened me. It was the usual ecstatic kundalini, but it's stimulation was through a subject I'm not fond of. So despite how much I yearn for kundalini, I found myself evading the situation. I awoke to inner heat in the body, likely due to my fear.

I just want to get this "on paper". I was teaching someone or something during sleep when somehow the issue of ghosts came into the picture. I said/discovered/taught something and kundalini began entering, which woke me from my sleep and caused mild fear.

This reminds of why I stopped meditating to sleep a year ago. During these pre-OOBE's or dreams, I was still what/who you know, but layers of egoic protection are not there.

Still, I think there is merit in meditating to sleep for this exact reason. When I am not in my body, I do not have the usual "egoic protection" that is apparently there. I am wondering what indications this may have on level of attainment.

Here are the fetters I've found to remain:

1) Fear
2) Daily substance use (It's diminished by 75%, but still there. I live in the most crowded place within about 40 miles, and often the dysfunctional noise and energy is too much unless I am free to meditate to the 3rd or 4th jhana all day, which I'm not.)

I know what I will do today. I will take the substances so I can go through with acquiring food down the street from the crowded store, then I will come home and do my obligations for the day. The rest of the day will be entirely devoid of these substances, where I will meditate and write more of the book.

I am learning how to restrict their use, and they are slowly, yet gradually diminishing. I no longer look at them with the fondness I once did. One should note I've been on substances almost everyday for over 2 decades. 1 of these decades I was treated universally as "Did you take your pills today?" because they couldn't handle my ecstatic and sensitive nature. Therefor, since it is the furthest back conditioning of my identity, this is a great challenge for me, but I feel I am going to do it.

Gotta face those demons...

[stugandolf]

Ok we all extol the Tao, but few mention its take on words...  I for one find go back and forth on the efficacy of words and their limits - "The Tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao. The name that can be named is not the eternal name.  The unnameable is the eternally real" - Mitchel translation.  So where does one stand with words?   Words are useful but...  Stu

[Jhanon]

They don't work, you are right. This is why I am struggling to convey the meaning of what has arisen.

We are like a conduit through which Nature flows. The conduit is not a self, but the conduit is aware. The awareness is you, but it is Nature.

This appears to be the closest expression in language to what has arisen.

[Jhanon]

REMINDER: Benjamin Franklin ended each day by recording which of his 13 virtues he broke.

I have also heard something similar mentioned on here by one of the GWV.

This appears to be a very good idea. Should look into which disciplines of Buddha/other are ideal to keep track of daily.

[Jhanon]

There are only two escapes from the inner-heat caused by desire. One is short term and dysfunctional and another is long-term and noble. The short-term is to give into the desire. The long-term is to absorb into the present moment via charisms.

[Jhanon]

NO ONE LET ME FORGET. I NEED TO OBSERVE PHYSICAL THINGS AND REMEMBER THAT MOST HUMANS FIND THEM REALLY IMPORTANT. LIKE IF SOMEONE SAYS "i'M CRAVING SUSHI", i HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT, RATHER THAN DISCOUNTING IT BECAUSE IT'S A CRAVE/DESIRE FOR WORLDLY THINGS.

It could cost me my daughter and companion if I don't remember this. I wasn't doing everything I can, because I couldn't see the above. I am gonna do it on my own, but I need to do anything and everything I can to cover this. It's important I be at least blameless.

I finally got the "dance of yin and yang" going again between the misses and I. And damn it's good. Can't lose it!

[Cal]

lol  okay, i wont let you forget

[Jhanon]

The self is a whiny, spoiled, indulgent, ignorant, pain in the ass. And every time it kicks and screams, we put it in the corner. Until it is so exhausted and demoralized, it gives up to obedience.