What I'm wondering is why someone in this group hasn't just directed their mind to knowledge of Jesus' existence? So far, whenever I get to 4th jhana, I can intend my mind for knowledge of something and get it. Unfortunately, it appears to be restricted by the level of my attainment. So, for example; I can rather easily see the past and remotely view the present of anyone I know. But, if I intend to know "How can I access the full ecstatic energy blast anytime I want", I don't get an answer.
In other words, it should be within our ability to find the answer through the 4th jhana, especially if that individual is an arahant.
You have been given the answer, and lots of encouragement. Now, you have to just live the lifestyle, if you want bliss in spades every time you meditate.
Well, Jeffrey mentioned that mystics are often devas who descend to the earth. Natalie's story brought that up as well. To me that is much more upsetting than being reincarnated. But, it wouldn't surprise me if it was true.
I expect that anyone who has found the fruit/charisms is most probably a reincarnated angel/deva. However, not all angels/devas get the jackpot every time. They must become impeccable in living the lifestyle that produces ecstasy.
You're right; I did get my answer, Jhananda. My response to this probably belongs in the Kundalini topic or something.
I've been reading St. John of the Cross, lately. Contemplating the kundalini energetical bliss of the early meditative absorptions, and trying to figure out why samadhi is empty of kundalini for so long now. The more I established in samadhi, the less fulfilling it was, because there was no kundalini--no communion with God. \
This lead me to recall Jhananda addressing this issue for me in the past by saying something like "look at the charisms more as communing with the divine, with God." This appeared logical and intuitively felt accurate. I tried, but have so far failed.
Reflecting further, I came to more fully understand that the kundalini blasts are not like the rest of the charisms/immaterial body sensations. They are something far stronger, transcendent and profound. I reflected on how they occur most often when I am experiencing a beautiful piece of art/creativity, like music, or the treatise that Michel paraphrased from one of his "manic" states--which seems closer to "God" than any musical experiences I've had lately. In the beginning of these kundalini energy experiences, it was like I was being guided. I only wished to be closer to the bliss of God, and so I followed anything that brought me this energy.
Furthermore, I considered how this path is one of renunciation of worldly things. The less worldly the stimuli which induce or help induce kundalini energy, the more blissful and transcendent it is. Obviously, I am leaving out many details of a multi-faceted phenomena. Let me get to my point:
Kundalini energy is communion with God, or whatever you want to call "it." I've found it to be indicative of one's alignment with the path to Union. The stronger it is, the closer one is to "God." Which I think is a multi-faceted mechanic I can only further make suppositions of.
I feel like, in relation to the supposition that kundalini energy is communion with God, that I've strayed further and further. God hasn't forsaken me--I've simply failed. Fear fools me every step of the way. There are doubts everywhere. How much suffering does God want me to endure? Cut the doctors, medications, family--everything out?
It feels tragic that I am so inadequate in my practice. That I've yet to feel the presence of God since that day almost two years ago. I may be in a dark night, but I don't know enough yet.
This post is all over the place. Let me just say this. I miss kundalini blasts. I miss the feeling of divinity. Of God guiding me. I am more noble in my efforts than I ever have before, and yet i feel forsaken. Please, everyone, forgive me for my inadequacies in this post.
