
There really has been a dramatic attitude improvement within me as well. I used to be angry, and had a victims mentality. Neither of these apply anymore. (except in regards to psychiatry and psychology)
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I see your point Zack. There is certainly a "shortcut" in coming across something that has already been studied in depth. I struggle with it because I am a devout believer in mysticism.
These scientific fields, in my opinion, work towards disproving what I know to be real. They do so in an aggressive, and invasive fashion. Some of the experiments I'm learning about...
My educational background is mostly in the physical sciences, and what I witnessed is it functions as another religion in that one has to accept the mainstream interpretation of the physical world, and a complete rejection of the immaterial domains, or one does not get the degree. Other western disciplines, such as: anthropology, psychiatry and psychology function much the same way.
Good to know, Cal, that you have had sufficient experience with the superior fruit of the contemplative life to know it exists; and I can see that you are well on your way, when you see the corruption of the world around us all, but you are dedicated your mystical life.
Now, every time you feel like you are in hell, and surrounded by demons, then do two things: 1) turn your mind to the charisms; 2) and know that the charisms are the direct experience of the sacred (god).
When you accept that you are in the presence of the holy spirit; god, shakti, YWHA, Allah (or whatever term floats your boat), then you turn your attention to the highest dimensions, and even if you are surrounded by demons, and even if you see and feel them crawling all over you, and even inside of you; know that they can do nothing to you, but pull your attention from the sacred. So, if you keep your attention upon the charisms of the sacred, "though you walk through the valley of the Shadow of death, then you will fear no evil."
To Gustav Schmaltz
30 May 1957
Dear Schmaltz:
Solitude is for me a fount of healing which makes my life worth living.
Talking is often torment for me, and I need many days of silence to recover from the futility of words...
Jung.
Thank-you, Zack, for posting the two quotes. I liked them very much. I especially like the two lines from Jung (above). When the world seems to impinge too greatly upon our equanimity, then we must realize, no matter what obstacle is placed before us, we simply must head off into the wilderness to regain our equanimity through solitude, and deep meditation. This is easier for the mendicant, who has given up everything; than it is for the householder, who has many responsibilities.
Often the best the householder can do is head off into his or her meditation room, asking others in the home to respect your need for peace, quiet and solitude. There one would meditate as deeply, and as long as one may have to to regain one's equanimity.
In every home that I had lived in during the 30 years of my contemplative householder lifestyle, I always made sure there was such a space for me, even if it was only a closet, or a shed in the backyard. I started and ended every day in this meditation space; and often retreated to it after work for about an hour of rest. Some nights I spent the whole night there in peace, and communion with the sacred. I am sure if you all do this, then you too will be able to regain your equanimity.