Hi all – not much to say, and lately most of what has come out of my mouth has been painful for me and made me retract reflexively into circuitous inner questioning, so it has been hard for me to maintain a solid line on much of anything outside my own interiority; except my job, luckily, which gives me the coins I still need to a frustrating degree. My meditation practice has been all over the place and I feel like I was reaching a greater depth last year before I scared myself into a scattered place I am still trying to recover from. But there is some comfort in knowing I'm not veering from the understanding that this is the correct life path for me (with an increasing clarity on the trajectory actually involved), and coupled with knowing that my slog through work drudgery is allowing me to fund and put in place a more fulfilling lifestyle, makes me not really worry or care about the depth of my practice at the moment. I may not be moving forward quickly but I am moving in the right direction, and I'm laying the right foundations.
Anyway, the point of this post is that there are a few quotidian developments in my quest to live a simple, contemplative life.
Miracle of miracles, I managed to buy a small pickup truck. I found one with almost all I wanted (small, V4, manual transmission, relatively low mileage, extremely basic with no extraneous computer gadgetry), the only thing it doesn't have I wanted is an extended cab. That's not much of a problem, it just makes space tighter. I've been watching Craigslist for camper shells but am now considering building my own out of wood. If I find a cheap one online before I'm ready to start building I might buy it and adapt to that, but in the meantime I'm pondering and planning an original construction. With a small
solar panel set-up I could power a light bulb, laptop, cell phone charger, maybe a tiny RV fridge. Food could be heated with a hot plate or propane burner. My intention is not to build something that my entire life will be based out of, but simply a space I can spend time in and sleep in. I still would like to build a tiny house, small cabin, yurt, renovated school bus, or something, in the future (along with a possible sensory deprivation tank)--but I'm also poor so I'm going with whatever's possible in the moment.
The truck will be outfitted with a
ScanGuage as soon as I can afford one, but I'm already experimenting with as many
hypermiling techniques as I can manage, to save gas, money, and ultimately the time I have to spend working. A lot of those are techniques I already use and am comfortable with but as I haven't had a vehicle of my own for years it's really about learning the nuances of this particular machine (and unfortunately dealing with others' road rage over things like not going at top speed to the red light that's obviously straight ahead). One of my considerations in building a camper shell is keeping the weight as low as possible and the shape as aerodynamic as possible.