Alexander's emotional, and offensive, statement regarding students that he once taught reminded me of the first year that I had my major awakening back when I was 21. At that time I wanted to help people, especially children, so I found a job working as a psychiatric technician in an institute that housed, I guess they are called "mentally deficient" these days. Then they were called 'retarded.' I found that they had all been so institutionalized that they were not at all interested in me helping them.
After that I worked at a place for juvenile delinquents, which was called "Desert Sanctuary." It was a remote ranch near Benson, AZ, which was run by Bill Haines, who also happened to be an American Hindu-style swami, who called himself "Swami Dhayananda." He found a better living housing juvenile delinquents than running it as an ashram.
For those who are interested in the history of
Millbrook, Desert Sanctuary is where the furnishings and people who ran Millbrook fled to after the feds raided Millbrook and arrested Tim Leary.
Anyway, I found the juvenile delinquents there were also not interested in me helping them out. Instead they enjoyed hijacking me.
Fast forward 40 years. I find the only people whom I can help are those who have stumbled upon deep meditation. Perhaps, Alexander, you will find the same, or find something else.