panegalli's Blog

[Jhanananda]

Good work.

[Jhanananda]

Thank-you, panegalli, for filing your report.

[Jhanananda]

I have so much anger inside of me, meditation is so difficult right now, I feel I will never overcome it, I'm thinking of giving up meditating, it's too difficult. I feel hopeless

This is one of the most difficult challenges of meditation.  One must keep practicing meditation, and sitting through the arising of difficult emotions.  Eventually one is washed clean of them.

[Jhanananda]

Two critical skills that must be mastered by those who wish to meditate deeply are: deep relaxation, and the stilling of the mind.  How are you at these two skills?

[Naman]

R u able to dedicate a fixed amount of time for sittings ? Like 2hrs or so? In my experience i found that failing to do so can being on all the old forgotten garbage tendencies

[jhananimitta]

I've been and will go through what your experiencing many more times. For me to get over myself was just to stick it out. Just sit and meditate and forget the joy and bliss or what should happen or what happened in the past. It will iron itself out over time.

[Jhanananda]

I've been and will go through what your experiencing many more times. For me to get over myself was just to stick it out. Just sit and meditate and forget the joy and bliss or what should happen or what happened in the past. It will iron itself out over time.

This was my method.  I also made an effort to observe my mental content throughout the day, and made an effort to still the mind every time I observe a thought.  I call it, "Finding the off switch for the mind."  Once you get skilled with the mind's off-switch, then it is easy to still the mind.

[panegalli]

The previous wave of suffering has passed for now. I've been experiencing some pretty pleasent sensations during meditation the pasr two days. It's interesting to note that there a sense that the sensations also taste or smell like something sweet.

[Jhanananda]

Good to know that you are having success in your contemplative life.  Now, just learn to value the superior fruit of attainment (maha-phala) as the highest value of anything that one can acquire in life, and spend the rest of your life saturating yourself in these and the other superior fruit of attainment (maha-phala).

[Jhanananda]

I found that deep meditation is where we shed layers of the psyche, which can often times be protective mechanisms for the ego that might have been important in childhood, but emotional maturity might require dumping them.

[Jhanananda]

This is where being slef-reflexive, as a contemplative, can pay off, in learning the causes of our suffering, and avoiding those causes.

In the Bible there are numerous to righteousness.  It is my opinion that this is a reference to avoiding what causes stress, anxiety, and suffering.

[Jhanek]

Probably going there forever may result in not being able to leave it nor being enlightened.

I do not advise you to go to hell, requires some strengh to leave that space safely.

[Jhanananda]

Some voices are telling me I have to go to hell forever and comeback to become enlighned

The descent into hell is a part of a number of religious systems.  For instance, Christianity hace Jesus descending into hell after his crucifixion.  I am also reminded of Virgil's Aeneide, which is a pre-Christian era Roman fiction that parallels the Iliad and the Odyssey.

Probably going there forever may result in not being able to leave it nor being enlightened.

I do not advise you to go to hell, requires some strengh to leave that space safely.

I am with you, Jhanek.  One need not go looking for hell, because if one needs to experience it for spiritual growth, then a fruitful contemplative is going to experience it in an OOBE.

[panegalli]

Long time since my last post. I am more stable now. I have been experimenting with doing a lot of short meditation sessions instead of a few long one. I'm having more success that way

[Alexander]

Hi Panegalli,
Whatever obstacles you are facing know that you are with us. :) I have been experiencing aridity in my meditations for years now so know you are not alone.