Hello every one, I would like to share an experience I had last week for some feed back.
I took a nap midmorning whilst my son took his. It was for about one hour and a half. For a few months now I have been meditating myself to sleep simply because it beats laying in bed thinking about nonsense. No other goal than that. I am recognising that I get into first jhana most nights. At some point during the nap I became aware that I was asleep. I could feel the posture I was in and almost see myself laying there knowing I was asleep. Next it felt as if I could see through my eyelids. When I looked forward into the black, images began to peacefully emerge and I realised I was laying in the same position but on the couch in my living room. This was a bit odd, but I felt very good. Next, out of nowhere I was sitting in a room looking at a man in his 30s who was talking to an old lady. He looked smart with a vintage suit on. Next I was looking at the same man in bed, but he was old, grey hair and a little overweight. His wife woke him up and he got out of bed and walked to his living room. His wife then brought through a birthday cake and they ate a bit and had a bit of a giggle. The thing is, this did not feel like a dream. There was none of the surreal symbolism you would expect from a dream. it was very real and normal, like a home movie and I felt like I was watching. Another thing was that the way their house was decorated really resonated with me. In fact they had things I would look out for for my own home now, even the colour of their walls. I really felt like I knew this man and there was a noticeable urge to empathise with him. When I looked close enough he reminded me a lot of myself. When I awoke I was perplexed by the clarity and randomness of it. Another feeling I took from it was that, if it truly was a recollection, that it didn't really matter. It was nothing special. If anything, thinking about it as a recollection made me think that my life was also a little insignificant. That one day I will be grey, old, a little overweight and die and the person after me might look back one night, see me and my wife on my birthday, wake up and go. Huh, that was weird.
Benj