My herbal teacher recommended choline supplement once or twice a week to unbind dream states. She said some drugs and herbs cause you to lose or block choline including marijuana. I have never lost access to my dreams except under a lot of daily stress or taking sleeping pills and sometimes alcohol. I am attempting to be drug free right now after smoking marijuana as pain management and appetite inducer for years. I have struggled with both of those issues since my teenage years and I am 31 now. Constant inflammation in some way or other. Definitely related to my genetics and premature birth, but I’m sure other things contribute to my general bodily unease and pain. Doctors only seem to have question marks for my condition. They can tell something is wrong, but can’t find what it is.
The lifestyle you described is the one I am currently living and I recommend it. I am home most of the time meditating, calligraphy art or art in general, studying, video games and tv or whatever else to pass my time. Just trying to remain present and deepen my practice.
Regardless, I am just trying to encourage feeling yourself out and testing things related to your practice and life. We all do that here but it is nice to be reminded we are not out of place for needing or wanting to adjust our views and test things that are safe and conducive to find peace. I’m sure once you are out of there, you will have more options to assist getting off the psychiatrics and deepening your practice. Many good wishes to you Alexander, I have thought of you often since joining this forum and feel you can and will find the depth you are seeking. I am still trying to get to the oobe myself after a decade. Will definitely report if dropping cannabis is one of the major factors in my lucidity.
Rougeleader