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Valdy

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Valdy How I got started
« on: February 22, 2012, 02:49:36 AM »
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I didn't have any unusual spiritual activity when I was a child that I can remember except starting at the age of four I had vivid nightmares. I was a small round ball moving very peacefully inside a huge spiral, continuing for a while until the edges of the spiral became jagged and horribly confused and I would wake up terrified. This continued until age 12 when I pleaded with God to stop the nightmares and they stopped.

I did have many dreams of falling off a bridge and waking up suddenly and didn’t get that figured out until latter in life.

My father was a very bad alcoholic and that has affected me all of my life.

In about 1980 when I was about 30, my wife left and took my children, that was a pivotal event in my life and put me into a state of shock, I was not able to sleep and could hear my heart beat all night.

One night as I was laying in bed my body started to vibrate extremely fast. The best analogy would be if you got into a small car and started the engine, put the gearshift into neutral and put the accelerator to the floor and held it there and didn’t let go.

I thought that I was having a heart attack, although as this went on for some time and nothing was happening except for the extreme vibration that maybe I was going out of body, I had heard about an OOB but didn’t know if this was one or not. Since I was still alive but still vibrating I started to try and let go and start moving. This was a most terrifying experience, but at this point I was willing to do anything to get moving along with it and I tried every method I could think of to let go. This went on for some time and I finally gave up trying to let go and when I did I suddenly shot up and went out through the roof. I ended up in the “University of the Mind” and was watching a time that I did not understand the concept for. I was lucid but was afraid to move because I didn’t want this wonderful
event to end. After a while I started to get bored with doing nothing and gingerly moved my foot ahead, I didn’t suddenly wake up in bed so I thought this was great. I walked out the door and into a library.

I dropped from the sky suddenly with a huge bang and landed on the bed. I was exhausted and lay there for some time not able to move, I realized that my energy was leaving and that I was going to die if I didn’t move and was able to get to the floor and walked around for a few hours until I thought it was safe to go back to bed. I was very surprised to see that there were no blankets on the bed at all and they were on the floor. Most dreams take only a few seconds but I had been gone for about 4 hours.

That first OOB scared me so much that I gave my spirit strict orders to get me out of body first in a dream and then wake me up, that has been working ever since and I have had about 300 OOB, the latest just last night. I thought for a while that they would eventually taper off and stop and they do, but if I am aware that I am getting lazy I will tell myself that I should have some courage and have another one.

In the next few months I had more interesting OOBs, I had several training sessions and one morning I woke up feeling completely saved of every problem, except I was not able to think. I was in extreme peace with a quiet mind and was not able to figure out what was wrong with me. (you may notice a little reverse thinking here).  After about a month I was able to get my internal dialog back up and running and of course started to feel terrible again. I was saved 2 more times but both times managed to get my internal dialog running again thereby feeling terrible again. (some people don’t learn : -)

Back then I had no meditation method, and still did not have the concept for it. I was a truck driver and had to stay awake for a week at a time with only a few hours sleep a night, still being very sensitive.

One morning I woke up with my energy exploded with my head buzzing and with far too much energy so that I was awake for about 3 months.

The doctor diagnosed me with tinnitus and told me to relax. I am still not sure what happened but think it was a combination of tinnitus and a kundalini emergence. Even a non spiritual person can have a kundalini explosion caused by stress, and the sounds sound like the Anahata sounds that can be found on the web.

About the year 1990 or 2000 I realized that I felt very buzzy and heavy around 11 at night and felt drawn to my chair. I started meditating then with no method. I do of course watch my breath now as I have found out why a person needs to stop the internal dialog, but I also do the OM sound as that is the sound I hear and it helps tune me up.

Bless Valdy







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Re: Valdy How I got started
« Reply #1 on: February 22, 2012, 01:58:51 PM »
Thank-you, Valdy, for posting your case history for us to review, find some commonality in our contemplative life, and understand our spiritual life better.  I would say the dreams that you had were definitely unusual spiritual activity when you were a child, although I bet most children have such unusual spiritual activity, but it is too often dismissed as “just a dream.”

When you “dreamed” you were a “small round ball moving very peacefully inside a huge spiral, continuing for a while until the edges of the spiral became jagged and horribly confused,” is a classic OOBE.  All falling dreams are also classic OOBEs.

Later in life when you were having a spiritual crisis and you lay awake at night and could hear your heart beat all night, is classic hypersensitive phase.  When that happened for me, I too thought I was having a heart attack. When you were lying in bed and your body started to vibrate extremely fast is classic energy phase.

Not being able to think, is the stilling of the mind.  As you found it is very peaceful.

The “tinnitus” you were diagnosed with was most probably the sound charism, which is a product of spiritual awakening.
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Re: Valdy How I got started
« Reply #2 on: November 17, 2014, 05:01:04 AM »
Hi, I am wondering what to do now. I lucid dream fairly often
and during the day when I am awake I feel as if something is going
on that I am not entierly aware of, as if I am still connected to the lucid
 dream world but not knowing how to behave with it while I am awake.
This is also connected to charismatic hearing as I am often told to" listen
to the music" and I feel an energetic echange inside but at the same time
not being aware of what exactly is going on. To answer my own question
it feels like I should pay more attention to being mindfull but was wondering
 what is up ?

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Re: Valdy How I got started
« Reply #3 on: November 17, 2014, 01:15:02 PM »
Hello, Valdy, it is the premise of most mystics who actually figure out mysticism, that the charismatic phenomena that we mystics sense is not of physical origin, but comes from the immaterial/spiritual dimension.  We are thus connected to the immaterial, or spiritual dimension, when we sense the charisms.  Thus, since you have become a lucid dreamer, and charismatic, then you are in direct communion with the immaterial/spiritual dimension, when you can sense the charisms.

What to do with these new faculties?  Well, get used to it, and learn to enjoy it.  Otherwise it will drive you mad.
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