Jhananda, my friend, it is the least I can do for you. It is truly the least I can do for you. I am glad you like it. It is my thought that because I derive so much pleasure and kundalini from music, that the charismatic sound may soon end up to be my "favorite" or most easily developed of the charisms. I hope to see the charismatic sound develop more, soon. I only have the faint ringing at most times, and it is not that soothing. Perhaps as experiences accumulate, it isn't necessarily that it develops to be "more" during daily life, but that it reminds of the ecstasy that we've experienced with it during meditation. Almost like a "flashback" from psychedelics. Which, by the way, those can be quite powerful. Or perhaps the more we traverse the jhanas, the more quickly the charismatic sound develops in daily life when we place our attention on it.
You may find the idea of the experience of the charisms is only what we bring to the experience. So, if the charisms to you are only a quirky collection of odd sensations that occur when you meditate, then that is all they are going to be. Whereas, if you bring to the charismatic experience the sense that you are in the presence of the sacred, call it god, holy spirit, shakti, or whatever, then the bliss component arises (piiti), then the joy component arises (sukha), then the charismatic contemplative experience becomes the religious experience of ecstasy.
You are right. For a reason I think I have begun to understand, I only experience the ecstasy while listening to music such as what I have posted here. Even though the effects/charisms are far more powerful in meditation, it is as if some kind of barrier is down while I listen to music. And as a result, is infinitely more enjoyable. I also receive revelation/insight through music. This morning, the following is the song which did it.
Sunlounger - "Sunny Tales (Chill Version)"http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQtakHByDJsI was reading some Rumi when this song came on. Just before it came on, the subtle experience/feeling of revelation/insight began. It's like a train leaving the gate and gaining momentum. It's not thinking, because it's too fast and too intelligent to be thinking. There is no volition involved, other than that of surrender.
What I was reading was about "absorption in God" and past and future veiling us from God. I have hesitantly used the word "God" few times in my life, but bare with me as I do moving forward because it just seems to fit.
When in the beginning of the song the kind of electronic sound that darts from left to right ear began is when it started to shoot intensely pleasant and "alive" kundalini sensations through the body. And there's just this knowing that, forgive me for saying this in this way, but it's like God/Universe/Cosmos/Emptiness/Shakti is experiencing itself through what I was experiencing. I've had this feeling many times before. It doesn't come from any thought. I remember the most vivid experience was while making music. I was listening to what I had created, while I was creating more, and this kundalini experience started again. Then this song just poured out. I had no idea what I was doing. I wasn't thinking about it. I was just blissed out in ecstasy, not resisting whatever the body would do--as long as I could stay with the ecstasy.
I wasn't even doing it.
The insight/intuition is that "I" am sitting with God, and you're both appreciating this ultra sublime moment. I would give anything to feel that at all times, and indeed I have given much up already. I don't have the elegance in words to adequately express this. I hope one day I will. This I do know, is that there is something in these music experiences to be utilized for allowing union and ecstasy to arise in meditation.
I think it is surrendering and uniting the experience with the experiencer. I think that is what must be done. I've taken a snapshot of how that happens/feels during this last experience this morning. I hope to activate it during meditation a little bit later.
