Heart Writing

[Jhanon]

This is what my heart wished to say this morning. I've only edited typo's. It wasn't screened by the mind. I don't expect it to make much sense intellectually. I welcome anyone else who wishes to let their heart speak freely.

I look at all the people I know
all the faces which glow
and it's as if everyone sees
whether or not they want it to be
There is beauty, and anger, and sadness, and we are getting ready for our trip
the tears flow, ever more, ever more
but it will soon be over
they come to this planet, because it too is passing on
transcending it's current state to something anew
some cycles are long enduring, but even planets are beings and all beings must pass through the dark night
it will be over soon
we have only each other. the trees. the sun. our friends. our strangers.
we can only face it with acceptance and grace
transcending the final dangers
With a heavy heart, I thank the ones who get the least notice,
The plants who've helped me cope, helped me learn, shown me a way to love, and a way to burn
to burn it all away, all the fetters and all the pain,
and I can't plan, how could i?
what will happen will happen,
I have no choice in the matter,
there never was one, it was always inevitable, it's all inevitable.

[Jhanon]

We're hurting inside, our hearts are overfull with sadness, we rely more and more on our cigarettes, our paper, our psychoactive allies and
and it's as if the earth understands, like a wise child being abused by it's parents, It's sadness is not for itself, but for the parents
please, stop; you're killing yourselves. There's enough to do that for you already.

[Jhanon]

I wish I could put a smiling face after these, because i know they seem grim. But I don't feel grim

[Jhanon]

If humanity was so important, it wouldn't be destructible. It is that which is indestructible which is most important.

[Jhanon]

One who suffers great and numerous setbacks in attaining will have great drive and efficacy to teach.

[Jhanon]

The identity is the fetters. The fetters are the identity.

Sotapanna/Stream-Entrant, there is joy, because the identity is experiencing the first rays of the Dhamma. One is still identity more than Dhamma.

Once-Returner/Sakadagami, there is stillness because the identity is fading, yet is balanced with the Dhamma. One is a bit more identity, than Dhamma.

Non-returner/Anagami, there is equanimity, because the identity is almost gone. When the identity arises, the Dhamma is immediately aware of it. It gently overcomes the identity and shows it the error, training it like a dog.

I am not an Anagami. I am not enlightened. There is only Dhamma training a dog^

How would one then know they are enlightened? Why would the Dhamma want to look at the dog? One doesn't look at a dog when it is walked. One simply walks.

However, once in a while the dog must be disciplined. This is when one recognizes the Dhamma within.

One will know when Dhamma shows. There is no "I am Enlightened." There is only Dhamma.

[Jhanon]

It flows, so effortlessly and divine, one doesn't realize. One is at ease, because one is Nature. There is no uncertainty. How could Nature be uncertain of itself?

[Jhanon]

The Tao is effortless. Leaving one to enjoy the charisms. There is no need to act. There is no action. There is only the Tao. The awareness rests in the delight of Tao as the Tao flows. And as one rests deeper in the delight of Tao, the Tao flows ever greater. As the Tao flows ever greater, one moves ever deeper into the delight of Tao.

[Jhanon]

Why should there be suffering? Identity suffers. The Tao does not. When suffering arises, one is reminded to retreat into the Tao.

[Jhanon]

When one looks back on one's actions or words, one does not delight in them. One delights in Nature in them. It is only Nature, only the Tao, only God, only....all else is like dust in the mouth.

[Jhanon]

There is no self. The dog, the identity has tricked Nature's Awareness ("your" awareness) for so long, that even as the dog begins to fall away, Nature's Awareness still believes it is self for some time. That it has will.

There is no self. No will. If there is will, it is identity. It is the dog. We could say that Nature has a will, which at this point is referred to as Knowing.

Nature flows like the water. The water has no self. It needs no will. It simply flows. The fear that this is undesirable is the dog again. "You" are aware, but "you" are not self. "You" are Nature, the Tao, Dhamma.

There is nothing more peaceful, more easing, more blissful, than relinquishing. Than surrender. This is why humans lay about. They are exhausted by illusion. By chasing the dog in pursuit of a self.

What room is there for the fetters, for the identity, for the dog, if one has relinquished?

This may sound undesirable, but it is not. To witness Nature flowing through "your" awareness is beyond fulfilling.

[Cal]

Oh, look. Gimme these books Jhanon. I want to read them.

[Jhanon]

What books? The above is all "my" writing.

[Jhanon]

We are like a conduit through which Nature flows. The conduit is not a self, but the conduit is aware. The awareness is you, but it is Nature.

[Cal]

I have not came to this conclusion yet. However Jhanon, you have showed me very many things I did not know. I continue to trust you, and will contemplate this.  Gimmeh those book titles