Hello rougeleader115, thank-you for expressing your conflict. I do not see that you are suffering from the Peter Pan Syndrome
Puer aeternus. I believe it is more the
Cassandra syndromeThe Cassandra metaphor (variously labelled the Cassandra 'syndrome', 'complex', 'phenomenon', 'predicament', 'dilemma', or 'curse') occurs when valid warnings or concerns are dismissed or disbelieved.
The term originates in Greek mythology. Cassandra was a daughter of Priam, the King of Troy. Struck by her beauty, Apollo provided her with the gift of prophecy, but when Cassandra refused Apollo's romantic advances, he placed a curse ensuring that nobody would believe her warnings. Cassandra was left with the knowledge of future events, but could neither alter these events nor convince others of the validity of her predictions.
The metaphor has been applied in a variety of contexts such as psychology, environmentalism, politics, science, cinema, the corporate world, and in philosophy, and has been in circulation since at least 1949 when French philosopher Gaston Bachelard coined the term 'Cassandra Complex' to refer to a belief that things could be known in advance.[1]
What happens for the mystic is we develop intuitive, revelatory insight, in which we see just how insane the world is. We do not want to be a part of that insanity, and we often lack the equanimity necessary to live in an insane world. So, the mystic often goes into seclusion to get away from the insanity of the world.
Another approach is to develop equanimity, which arises at the 3rd stage of deep meditation. If consistently meditate to the 3rd stage of deep meditation, then we end up with a stable level of equanimity.
Nonetheless, I and many mystics have found the world just too insane to live in. For instance my problems in Sedona only underscore how insane the world is, and how I am better off being as far from the herd as I can get. So, I am not surprised that you feel the same way.
Please note that since this subject is so important, and we have not started a thread dedicated to it, that I split the topic, and started the new thread.