I have always found meditation difficult.
Someone asked me why I did it, and i wasn't always able to answer easily.
I feel like it's a good use of my time; I don't regret a single second of meditation.
While my experiences have been better or worse, there's really no bad meditation. Even when I felt bad, meditation wasn't.
I guess meditation will make me more sensitive, eventually.
Reading over many people's experiences here, I can see there's a lot of sadness. Not necessarily in the mediators themselves, though sometimes, but also in their perception of others.
I remember my wife had a similar experience when I lived in South Philly with a neighbor's child. In my wife's mind, she saw the child's whole life and it wasn't pretty.
I don't notice these things as I'm not really perceptive. I feel like compared to many other members, I go through life in a haze.
I'm working on listening better to people--I guess this is a primitive start to perception.
Perhaps this is why meditation is difficult for me? I don't know, I'm just putting in the time and following the directions.
No matter what's going on in my life, I know that if I can sit down to meditate, I'll feel better after.
I always tell people that I'm not good at meditation; I'm wondering what that means now.
I just wanted to thank everyone for their posts. I'm a writer, and I realized that a lot of writing is really good, very powerful.
