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pj

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My experience with what seems to be kundalini
« on: July 27, 2013, 03:40:37 PM »
As my meditation has begun to deepen, I have begin to notice some rather new sensations.  Probably around 20-25 minutes into my sitting, when I begin truly accepting my body and mind as it is, I feel a strange tension mostly in my stomach and abdominals  (Its almost as if I feel the tension inside the organs themselves as well).  This is not me clenching the muscles since they are relaxed, from what I can tell it seems to be more associated with anxiety that I might have built up during my day from not maintaining mindfulness.  That is, the sensation seems to be the emotion of anxiety itself.  So, as I accept this sensation, the tension builds until I have let go of it entirely.  At this point the feeling of tension (not actually physical tension) changes entirely turning into what I can only describe as a liquid flow of energy that then goes up towards my head.  At this point my mindfulness and concentration increase very suddenly.  Sometimes this happens more than once during my meditation, the feelings of tension in my stomach seem to re-arise when my mindfulness lags, and dissolve in a stream of energy when my mindfulness and concentration reach a certain breaking point.

EDIT:  Reviewing this immediately after a sitting, I realize that I actually have no idea what the strange tension is.  I was assuming it to be anxiety/stress, but now I am uncertain.
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Re: My experience with what seems to be kundalini
« Reply #1 on: July 28, 2013, 01:14:41 PM »
As my meditation has begun to deepen, I have begin to notice some rather new sensations.  Probably around 20-25 minutes into my sitting, when I begin truly accepting my body and mind as it is, I feel a strange tension mostly in my stomach and abdominals  (Its almost as if I feel the tension inside the organs themselves as well).  This is not me clenching the muscles since they are relaxed, from what I can tell it seems to be more associated with anxiety that I might have built up during my day from not maintaining mindfulness.  That is, the sensation seems to be the emotion of anxiety itself. 
Those who meditate deeply become deeply self-aware.  Often we find in this self-awareness things about our self that we are not comfortable with, such as anxiety.  So, we let go of the anxiety, and meditate deeper.
So, as I accept this sensation, the tension builds until I have let go of it entirely.  At this point the feeling of tension (not actually physical tension) changes entirely turning into what I can only describe as a liquid flow of energy that then goes up towards my head.  At this point my mindfulness and concentration increase very suddenly.  Sometimes this happens more than once during my meditation, the feelings of tension in my stomach seem to re-arise when my mindfulness lags, and dissolve in a stream of energy when my mindfulness and concentration reach a certain breaking point.
Yes, as we meditate for longer periods of time we may notice waves of movement within the meditation experience.  When our focus waivers, then we lose depth.  As our focus becomes better, then our meditation experience improves. 

However, to use the English contemplative language better, then we would say when we are engaged in a meditation object, that is the practice of meditation.  Concentration is what we are doing when we are engaged in a meditation object.

When we are having a meditation experience, such as pleasant feelings, energy, etc. then we call it absorption, or a meditation experience, or a religious experience, or jhana, or samadhi.
EDIT:  Reviewing this immediately after a sitting, I realize that I actually have no idea what the strange tension is.  I was assuming it to be anxiety/stress, but now I am uncertain.
The "tension" that you are experiencing could be a charism, in which you are noticing spiritual energy (virtue, virya, kundalini, prana, qi) arising in your stomach chakra.
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Re: My experience with what seems to be kundalini
« Reply #2 on: October 12, 2013, 02:18:45 PM »
At this point in my practice, I am confidant that I now understand what that feeling of tension was; I believe it was a physical manifestation of craving/clinging (as I originally thought).  I realized this about a month ago when I was focusing on letting go during a sit and felt the tension in my chest complete release.  It was as if my heart were expanding.  The first time this happened, it was accompanied by a sensation of coolness that filled my body (and mind).  When I have a more stressful day, and sit to meditate, I find that the knot in my chest is tighter, and takes longer to undo.  If I have had an easy, joyful, day, then the knot takes only a few moments to undo.  Some days the knot doesn't even seem to re-tighten itself.
I'd like to say that release from that tension feels absolutely amazing.

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Re: My experience with what seems to be kundalini
« Reply #3 on: October 12, 2013, 11:55:49 PM »
Yes, release from tension, stress and anxiety is a wonderful feeling, that is why it is called 'liberation.'  The next challenge is to keep making adjustments in one's lifestyle so that tension, stress and anxiety are reduced as much as possible; although there are many stresses in life, so no matter what we do we cannot get rid of all of it, but we can reduce it, and learn to become resilient, so that we recover quickly. Resilience is a skill that takes much practice.
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Re: My experience with what seems to be kundalini
« Reply #4 on: January 31, 2014, 06:46:53 PM »
Yes, release from tension, stress and anxiety is a wonderful feeling, that is why it is called 'liberation.'  The next challenge is to keep making adjustments in one's lifestyle so that tension, stress and anxiety are reduced as much as possible; although there are many stresses in life, so no matter what we do we cannot get rid of all of it, but we can reduce it, and learn to become resilient, so that we recover quickly. Resilience is a skill that takes much practice.

Yes, yes it is. Out of everyone here, I am most likely the least resilient of all. So even if I have had some decent samadhi results lately, it is most likely in an attempt to make up for my lack of resilience. Good message, Jhananda.

And pj, if you are still around, know that I am not exactly envious or jealous, but, oh what is the word.....Happy for you, with a strong intention to experience kundalini as often as it seems you do  ;D