Did you ever have psychotic, manic episodes, with hallucinations? Did you gain any insights from them, if you did?
I am not sure if you have read
William James' Varieties of Religious Experience; however, the backstory behind it, and the work of his graduate student
Edwin Diller Starbuck, is they were working under a model that the religious experience is nothing more than "religious psychosis." Therefore, since I have religious experiences, then by the definition of the DMS IV, I am psychotic, with manic episodes, and hallucinations. Worse than that, I have spent my whole life cultivating them through leading a contemplative life.
In some so called primitive cultures psychosis is regarded as a highly significant, spiritual experience. It is encouraged and even induced by the use of mind altering drugs such "ayahuasca", which is used by natives in the Amazon rainforest. One western anthropologist who tried ayahuasca, described the experience as like being shot through the barrel of a gun, lined with baroque paintings, and landing in a sea of electricity. Apparently one who takes this drug has hallucinations, and comes face to face with their demons. The task is to overcome your demons. So, they use this drug not for the fun of it, but because it is beneficial for ones personal development.
I am an Anthropologist, and I have studied in depth the use of psychoactive substances for stimulating the religious experience as a participant observer. Ayahuasca is just one of many drugs that have been used by primitives who wanted to stimulate a religious experience.
I have also lead a contemplative life to stimulating the religious experience as a participant observer. I have found that the psychoactive substances only mimic the religious experience, and never result in producing a positive transformative product in the subject. Whereas, I have found that leading a contemplative life to stimulate the religious experience does produce a positive transformative product in the subject.
I think that in our own culture we should allow people to go through their psychotic experience, and just let them work it through by providing a supportive environment. I was always extremely disappointed when my psychosis was interrupted by the intervention of some well meaning psychiatrist with an arsenal of drugs.
Quote of the day: The only way to understand the mathematical concept of infinity is to contemplate the extent of human stupidity. - Voltaire
I love your quote. I would be diagnosed as bipolar with psychotic, manic episodes, with hallucinations; however, as I see it, the problem with psychiatry is they are all nuts, like everyone else. Those who are dismissed as being mad, like: Emily, you and I, live in a mad, mad world, and we are among the few who know it.
As I see it, the problem with the psychotic is we know there is something deeply wrong with the world, but wherever we go we are told that we are the crazy ones. So, we wander from one disempowering situation to the next, with the mad rising and falling of the bipolar roller coaster.
The trick, for the bipolar, is to learn how to stay "manic" all of the time, while maintaining equanimity, which will avoid dissipating one's internal energies, which produces the depressive phase. I have found that I can be what is called "manic" and "psychotic" all of the time, while avoiding the depressive phase, by learning to manage my internal energy through leading a self-aware contemplative life.
I read the mystics, and follow their lifestyle. Today they would be dismissed as bipolar with psychotic episodes.
Part of what works for me is to avoid the cities, live in the wilderness, and only come into small towns for my needs. So, I expect Christian's goat farm helps Emily stabilize; whereas, going on tour, while stimulating her manic phase, results in a depressive phase, because of all of the work involved in touring.
I noticed a White Tara tanka in the background of one of Emily's videos. I searched for Shaktu, her recording label, and found a Pakistan location, which confused me until I saw a
photo of a man posing with Emily, who I guess is Muslim,
Tariq Ali, so there might be both Buddhist and Sufi references in her personal philosophy, as there is in mine.
I pulled together references from the major mystics, as well as from western psychology, to build a cogent philosophy for today's mystics, which has helped me, as well as some friends of mine. The link to it is below. Perhaps you have read it already.
Jhana, the Joyful Home of the Way (Di.t.thadhammasukhavihaaraa). Understanding the meditative absorption states (jhanas) and their associated phenomena (phala) within the Buddhist canon.
By the way, I have found two more of her music videos that I like quite a bit:
Who Knows Where The Time Goes... and
Believer