I agree, Michel. On both our accounts. As you are aware, I am intimately aware of what you are going through. Zyprex and Lamictal appear to be what you're on. Lamictal limits the range of dopamine, and Zyprexa limits seratonin. You are not exaggerating. These drugs are far more difficult to withdraw from. However, I found the choice to come off them was far easier. The difference being the process of withdrawal from opioids is a little easier, while the pharmaceuticals are easier to decide to quit.
Yes, these are the two meds I'm taking. How long had you been taking these meds? Months or years? If so, how did you manage to withdraw from them.
Thank-you, Jhanon, for your kind words of encouragement.
Thankfully, I quit these drugs within 1 year of beginning them. They made me feel like a robot, like I wasn't alive. Nothing was enjoyable. All the magic of life was gone, even though I barely was aware of the magic.
At this time psychedelic mushrooms began to enter my life through no effort of my own. I began to research the healing powers of psychedelics, and tried them on two separate attempts without any effects. I was told and then verified that those medications were canceling out the effects of the psychedelics entirely.
So, I took a risk and quit them in favor of the psychedelics. That is a level of risk I had never taken before. I was used to letting doctors tell me what to do.
I used mostly marijuana and video games for the first week or two of withdrawal, and didn't notice much withdrawal because I was so unaware and naive. But in retrospect, I was couch/bed-ridden continuously. After a few weeks, I began meeting truly noble, authentic and loving humans I didn't even knew existed. They also used marijuana.
Through these people, I came into contact with many "mentor"-like individuals. I would smoke marijuana with them, and with the increased receptivity it afforded me, these people would teach me like the father I never had. i had a series of profound mystical experiences that changed my life forever. I've never told of these experiences on here out of respect for Jhananda's view on these substances, but the emotional and spiritual release was profound.
One, where a stranger compassionately taught me to deny myself the use of excuses so as to change my life, I remember getting in the car to leave and filled with shattering ecstasy--so much so that I was clinching the armrest, sobbing, and in the super strong version of kundalini energy blast. That was perhaps my first experience of transcendental insight, and I was hooked. That was also when I realized there was hope in the psychedelic compounds like marijuana, and the others.
When the withdrawals were greatest--I then knew the medications would not impact a psychedelic experience because they had mostly left my system. I began taking psychedelics which were freely offered to me. And these noble friends would provide every therapeutic set and setting I needed to endure the initial fear of using such a powerful substance. i ended up watching Lord of the Rings, and my girl---friend held me tightly the whole time. This afforded me additional experiences of kundalini bliss, insight and release, resulting in the happiest and free-est I had ever been in my life. From that point on, I was so ecstatic, even when on no substances, that the withdrawals weren't even there.
Jhananda will most likely not appreciate this, but I insist on being honest. Do I recommend the path I took? No. But can you see how I was aided? Absolutely. And that is the point.
