It strongly appears I'm beginning to consciously experience early onset omnipresence as it has been defined elsewhere on this forum. I didn't expect this to happen for many years. It sufficiently confused me enough to cause considerable difficulty for about a day. Until that point, it was just curious reports. It took several hours of deep meditative reflection until I realized what was happening.
The earliest of these reports began about a year ago or so. It was reports from people that they were hearing my voice saying loving things, or visiting them during sleep, but it soon escalated--these experiences being reported to me. These are exclusively individuals I've guided into the stream, like many of you have. Initially, I would simply respond "No, I wasn't intending that" or "I didn't experience that."
But then I was sitting on a back porch on a beautiful spring afternoon, overlooking vast distances with someone who has been very closed off to charismatic activity. It's actually a very close relative which I've been visiting and slowly watching them unfold for over 4 years.
They were "freaking out"--having an anxiety attack. I asked them to close their eyes. I did so as well. I entered 2nd jhana and EARNESTLY began intending them to experience what I was experiencing (which was utterly beautiful, but not too overwhelming for someone new.) About THIRTY seconds into this meditation, I realized intuitively that it was actually happening. I had no doubts. Naturally, having wanted to express boundless love to this individual for decades--I poured it on.
When we exited, they said to me "Oh my god." as if there breath had been taking away. "I experienced something so beautiful. This has never happened when I tried to meditate in the past." Then they proceeded to describe what I had experienced myself.
This is where something unexpected happened. At the end they said "I....I heard your voice saying you love me." This is NOT something this individual would say unless it really rocked them, and did happen. As with all these other reports, I said "No, I can't say I intended that." because I DIDN'T. Not consciously or specifically. This individual entered the stream that day, and has completely transformed, very much to my astonishment.
Reports of my image or voice or whatever, appearing or being experienced kept coming in from others, but I simply told them the truth that I had not experienced nor consciously intended what they experienced. I would even check my activity tracker and say "No, I was on a walk at that time." Most recently, these reports have been escalating in power of experience. To the point which they caused significantly elevated affinities to form. These were threatening the existing relationships of these stream-enterers companions, so it became time to figure out what the hell was going on.
I realized, finally, that every report which had come in, coincided with moments in which I had also experienced visions, or flashes of a vision of these individuals. It would just be their face, or the sense of their essence--even if I was on a walk or doing dishes. And I realized that whenever this happened, I HAD, in turn, intended them to feel at peace, loved, and fulfilled. I almost always do this when an aspirant pops into consciousness, simply because it feels good, and because it is part of the practice to love all beings.
So the primary obstacle to ruling early onset Omnipresence was, how could I have said or done this to your experience, if I wasn't myself experiencing it? But then I recalled Jhananda telling me that omnipresence while in-body is experienced differently than it is at the higher samadhi. This is consistent with all the other charismas while in-body.
I'm unsure if Jhananda is on retreat or not, but I would appreciate any guidance from senior members who have direct experience with this.
Take care
